I wake up to the sound of thunder, and lightning flashes illuminate the house. It is strangely exhilarating, music of the night that accentuates my remote surroundings. After the heat of the day, all the windows are open, bringing nature inside. When next I wake, it sounds like a big fan, but instead is the wind and waves bouncing off the shore. I can hear it on all sides, being on a point nearly surrounded by the lake.
I am on Mallard Island in Rainy Lake, a unique haven once owned by Ernest Oberholtzer, a trained landscape architect who dedicated his life to wilderness preservation and took particular interest in the indigenous peoples, their culture and traditions. He first summered on the island in the 1920s and over time oversaw the construction of buildings that he designed to be in tune with the natural environment using native materials. The result is an eclectic collection of buildings that blend into the landscape, feature outdoor spaces to sit overlooking the lake, and are lined with shelves for his extensive collection of books. Ober, as he came to be known, established a charitable trust, the Ernest C. Oberholtzer Foundation in 1965 which has governed use of the island since his death in 1977. Its mission is “to foster Ober’s legacy and North Woods island home as a source of inspiration, renewal, and connection to Indigenous Peoples, kindred spirits, and the natural world. Gi-bezhig-oomin”
Today the foundation hosts week-long retreat opportunities on the island for two months during the summer, some led by the foundation, others open to applications from groups seeking time to live simply and pursue interests in keeping with this mission. A writing friend invited a group of 9 women she believed would be interested in this unique wilderness experience to rejuvenate and foster their creativity, and I was lucky to be included. So here I am!
Although I knew the basics of what this week entailed, I really wondered just what I was getting into! I only knew three other participants, the rest I met as we carpooled or boarded the pontoon that delivered us and all our gear to the island. Upon our arrival, the two caretakers walked us around the ¼-mile long island to see all its buildings and find our assigned homes for the week, while filling in details about the place, how to live in this space, and practical advice. I was immediately grateful for these knowledgeable volunteers who would spend the week with us.
For someone as active as I am, I was apprehensive about how I would survive a week limited to the paths that wove from one end to the other on this island! But I took it as a sign that I needed to let go, to let the island dictate my days, and live in the moment. I would soon learn that it was going to be the island’s gift to me.
The idea of this week was to pursue our own creative interests. To have the time and freedom to indulge in them as we saw fit – or not, if just rejuvenating our spirit was what we needed. We represented a range of crafts, including writing, drawing, watercolors, nature, movement, needlework, and paper arts. The longer we were there, the more I learned about the talents hidden within our group. Each afternoon, we took turns sharing our passions – purely optional, of course, but despite my initial reservations about presenting, I found it very satisfying, bonding over our creativity and learning to look at the world in new ways.
The only other routine in our days was dinner time. The Wannigan is an old cooking barge that originally served as a floating kitchen that followed the log booms. Relocated onshore, it is a well-outfitted kitchen with a long narrow table that seats up to 12 diners. The caretakers prepared dinner for us that first night, as is the custom, and we took turns cooking in pairs for the remaining dinners. Breakfast and lunch were on our own, to prepare and eat when we pleased. At any time, it was common to find spontaneous groupings sitting in the Adirondack chairs on the deck out front, chatting over coffee, lunch or just because.
It’s no surprise that I was drawn to the kayaks resting on the dock. Nurturing a shred of my active tendencies, I was up early the first morning and out on the water to explore the islands. Mallard Island is part of the Review Islands, with four long slim islands owned by the foundation, tightly packed with narrow channels between, sheltering one another from the big lake. The fifth island across the ends is owned by an author. I made my way around and between them all, attempting to get my bearings and drinking in the peace and quiet. It was only the first of many forays on the water, gradually exploring further afield yet always respecting the vast expanse of the lake and its open waters. It fulfilled my need to “do something” while giving me space, solitude and beauty in keeping with the week’s intent.
We had five full days on the island, basically a blank slate. It wasn’t long before I discovered that I was comfortable going to bed without a plan for the next day. I’d see what it brings, what I’m moved to do when I get up. Very out of character for me, but so liberating! It was hard to feel rushed on the island. All activities were optional and our mantra was “there is no late.”
One option I immediately embraced was the opportunity to join others for yoga or movement sessions on the dock mid-morning each day. There were no pretzel poses or requirements, only the calming guidance to “do what feels good to you.” How I welcomed loosening and stretching my surgery-scared body, feeling it relax under the influence, becoming at ease with the process. Mother duck and ducklings would swim by, loons called and wind stirred the leaves of the trees, a perfect accompaniment to our movements.
Ober’s strong attachment to the Anishinaabe people continues to this day. Pebaam, a tribal elder related to those in Ober’s time, is a frequent visitor to the island, and freely shares his tribal roots. He made his way to our dinner table several times, sharing his humor, captivating us with his experiences. I couldn’t help but respect his native wisdom reflected in the deeply lined features on his face, and gray braids that rested over his shoulders. When he invited us to participate in a Drum Ceremony, we eagerly accepted.
Gathering in the Drum Room of Ober’s Big House, he led us through the ritual of setting up Mother Drum, handed around tobacco to hold in one hand, and gave each of us a turn drumming during the incantations. Along the way, he explained the significance and meaning behind it all. It was a sacred and spiritual experience that touched us all, with reverence for the Anishinaabe ways. Yet another gift from the island.
I came with only the vague idea that I would pursue my writing and try to reinvigorate my skills in drawing and watercolors. The island is rich in writing spots. Each house includes one or more nooks with a desk in front of windows, benches and chairs in hidden spots provide el fresco privacy, and screen porches are fair game. We have electricity throughout the buildings, rendering laptop use possible, despite the absence of wifi. Early on I settled into a desk in our house to start this blog post. I managed a few paragraphs, but it felt forced. I couldn’t get into the flow. Another day I toted my laptop in a backpack in search of a spot to try again, but the weight felt burdensome. The technology didn’t fit. I never opened it again.
Instead, I took out my pencil and paints. After several years’ neglect, I was nervous. But I forged ahead, drawing a small collection of symbols that represented the island to me, pursuing the journal-style art I’d learned. Over the next couple days in various locales I inked the drawings, painted them (the most intimidating part!), added the words and frame. It was a triumph, just to be able to complete it, and better yet to yearn to do more. The magic of the island.
At the center of it all, was the simplicity of life here. While there is a water filtration system, we had no running water which meant toting water for drinking and washing up. There were three composting privies on the island, and fortunately one was directly behind our house. I made regular visits there in the middle of the night, reveling in the glow of the moon, feeling the still-warm air caress my skin, savoring the stillness. Some mornings it got me up for the sunrise.
Our weather was incredibly hot most days, and the water super calm – not the tumultuous Rainy Lake I’ve usually known. In the sheltered passageways between the islands, we all swam frequently, cooling off in the refreshing water often multiple times a day. Surprisingly, I found no need to use the solar shower, and only washed my hair with a pitcher of water in the woods once. How easily we adapted!
Best of all, was detaching from life off-island. I had good cell service, and admit to reading texts and emails sporadically, but never answered any of them and made no phone calls. I admit to posting my paddling excursions on Strava, but that was my limit. I was answerable only to myself, accountable to no one. It was a unique and freeing feeling, fostered by the island.
On the flip side, the camaraderie, support, and friendships we established organically throughout the week sustained us. We gained insights into one another’s lives gradually, drew inspiration from others’ strengths and honesty, learned and formulated new ideas from their example. For nine people who were mostly strangers at the beginning, we formed a cohesive and caring community by the end.
For our final evening, we saved one craft presentation that helped embody our week’s experiences, and provided us with a written gift to remember it all at a future date. For our closing, we reversed the order of setting up Mother Drum, respectfully putting her away. One more time we went around the circle and spontaneously shared what this week meant to us. At the completion, a silence fell on the room, sustained and meaningful. The hush a contented closure. A thank you and farewell to Mallard Island.











































































































































































































